June Cutler

Paul Cutler It is with a broken heart that I announce the passing of my darling mum today. Mum was an amazing woman, full of wisdom, courage, life and love. A Mother, Wife, Nana, Great Grandmother, Aunty, sister, daughter and great friend to all. Mum you were everything to me, all that is pure in this world was within you. I am and will forever be indebted to you for the love, support and teachings you provided. You gave so much to so many, and we your family are forever grateful. You were the family matriarch. You were the glue that held everything together. Right now I feel rudderless, drowning and empty. No words can convey the loss I feel or the love I have for you. I will miss your kind and honest counsel, I will miss our daily talks, our regular catch ups and your unconditional love . A better mother there is not. You lived an honest and worthy life serving your family till the very end and I will forever cherish all the times we had together. You fought a dignified and courageous battle, right till the end. You never complained, you just got on with the fight despite your poor body being ravaged by this insidious disease week after week, month after month. Mum, you are the bravest women I know, and yet despite all your tenacity and all our love we still couldn’t get you thru. My mind knows you are at peace now, no more treatments, no more pain, no more suffering. But my heart and soul feel shredded, for what the mind knows the heart does not. Don’t worry Mum, I will look after Dad, I made you that promise and I will honour it just as I will honour your life and memory. Rest In Peace my beautiful mother, spread your wings and fly to Nan, Pop and the rest of our lost loved ones. I will see you each night in the sky mum, for you will be the brightest star. Till we meet again mum, I will carry you in my heart always. 💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler To all my family and friends, I sincerely thank you for the love and support you have provided to Gail and I and our family on the passing of my dear mum. For those of you who would like to join Gail and I in celebrating mums life, her service will be held on Tuesday 10th July at the White Lady Chapel located at 25 Cooper St Epping at 10am sharp. We will then lay my dearest mum to rest at the Northern Memorial Park at Fawkner. We welcome you to join us and it would also give us an opportunity to personally thank you for your love and support . ❤️❤️ Paul and Gail

Paul Cutler Mum, I’m so lost and so utterly devastated. A fog of deep grief envelopes me I feel so overwhelmed and consumed, I close my eyes and see your smile. I whisper your name and hear your soft reply My heart is broken and my soul bleeds I will never get over your loss. As I replay in my mind the memories we created, the tears flow freely. Your pain has ended and mine has just begun RIP my beautiful mother 💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler Mum, the hours pass and days turn to nights I lay awake again and again, hour after hour. Been crying since 3am but that’s nothing new I hear your name whispered, I turn around but I am alone - then a I realise that it’s my heart calling for you. 💔💔💔💔💔

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Paul Cutler Mum, a month ago my heart broke and my world was crushed as you left us so suddenly on that cold windy morning. I miss you more than I could ever convey in mere words, my world is not the same and never will be. Each day is a struggle,the pain is real and our loss immeasurable as is my love for you. You are the greatest mum a son could have asked for and I have so many beautiful memories of you and I that I dearly cling to. Not an hour goes by where you’re not in my thoughts. Mum, I often hear your voice and turn to find you, but sadly you’re not there and its in that moment that I realise it’s my broken heart calling for you. As I write this, tears roll down my face but a sense of calmness also comes over me and I know that it’s your love and your spirit that continues to care and watch over me. Today mum as with every day, I am a broken man and a mere shadow of my previous self. But I know you would want me to carry on and I will, I will endeavour to live a life that would make you proud. Mum my love for you transcends this universe and until we meet once more I will always keep you in my heart. Your ever loving and broken hearted son ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Paul Cutler The miracle of you mum is everywhere, it’s in such beautiful things as this glorious morning with the sun shining on my face before the days rush and also the little bird that often greets me and sings when I place my board and flags out in Plenty. As I sit quietly this morning having my coffee and toastie I am once again overwhelmed with sadness and deep grief. It comes without notice as it so often does. As I try to hold myself together, a silent tear falls, then another, the ache in my heart, the lump in my throat and the never ending terrible pain of your loss weighs so heavily. These are merely symptoms of a sons love for his mum. If only I could hold your hand again, hear your voice, chat a while. I love and miss you more than anyone will ever know. But I know you are with me and you show me signs that you are near and looking over me. So I will forever continue to look for you in them mum until I can hold your hand once more. 💔💔💔

Paul Cutler 2 months ago today mum you left us so quickly and so tragically. My beautiful mum no longer here to hold, to drop in and have coffee with, to talk and share laughs with. Everything changed in that moment! My life was turned upside down and It will never be the same. Everyday is a struggle, the pain and heartache won’t dissipate, it’s real and so overwhelming. Everyday just like me, Grief puts on a new face. I still talk with you and know that you are with me, but it’s not enough, it’s not nearly enough!! I am coming to understand that grief never ends, it’s like living two lives. One where you pretend everything is alright and the other where your heart silently screams in pain. For where there is deep grief there is great love. Mum losing you was a deep and incalculable lasting blow, one which I will never recover from. I try each day to live without you, to fill the void you left behind, to fill the emptiness I feel but nothing changes and yet everything in my world has changed. Mum I miss the warmth of your gentle hug and the love I felt when my arms were wrapped around you, I miss the soft sound of your voice and hearing you say “I Love You”. Mum your passing has left a heartache no one can heal but your Iove has left memories no one can steal. I’m sending you my love today mum, but that is nothing new for no day dawns and no day ends without loving you. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler I miss you terribly Mum 💔💔

Paul Cutler This is so true mum, three sad and agonising months have passed since I lost you and it’s no easier today than that cold winters day when my world came crashing down whilst holding your hand as you slipped away. I still see the smile that you mustered for me as I burst into the lounge on that morning, I held your hand and tried to reassure you everything would be ok......but it wasn’t. In those final moments mum you looked at me with your loving eyes and I felt the love that poured out between us. With your last words you said “I Love you son” and you gave me one last smile.......a smile that I will always remember and keep treasured💔 You are missed more than I can articulate and my pain only seems to grow. Mum I would give up everything I have, all my tomorrow’s to have been able to save you, to hold you again. I don’t understand why the best are taken, in fact I don’t understand much at all anymore. You were the glue that held everything together, now everything is broken including me. My grief will never end because my love for you will never end. This hard man has been shattered and all it took was the most beautiful loving soul with the warmest smile. RIP my beautiful mum, someday we will be together again but until that day know that I will always love, honour and respect you. Your devastated and heartbroken son. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler Mum, never have truer words been spoken of you. Missing you terribly 💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler Mum, it’s been 111 days, 2,664 hours, 159,840 minutes 9,590,400 seconds and too numerous tears to count since I lost you. What I wouldn’t give to sit and hold you again. To see your beautiful smile, hear you soft voice, to watch you twiddle your thumbs just like nana did. Time heals nothing, instead I have learnt to conceal my heartache and pain. A pain so great that few will ever understand. Your death has forever changed me. I relive all our memories every day while the world keeps turning, it’s all that I have now. Mum, you will live on in my heart and my mind always, there you will be treasured and loved for eternity. 💕💕💕💕

Paul Cutler My darling Mum, your resting place is now finished. It looks beautiful and I’m sure it’s everything you would want. Love and miss you every day 💕💕💕

Paul Cutler Mum, it’s been 4 long months since I lost you. Even now when I am thousands of kilometres away and in another country you are with me. You are always with me and I take you with me wherever I go. There are so many things I want to tell you and share with you. But the most important one is that I love you and have an enormous respect for all that you did and all that you gave. Rest peacefully my dear mum. I’ll look for you in the heavens today, tomorrow and always. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler 5 months today you left us mum to spread your wings. Wings that you well and truly earned with all the good deeds and love you did and gave to me and so many others. A lifetime of giving, loving, protecting, teaching, sharing and caring - a better mum there is not ❤️❤️ That terrible morning, the morning that everything stopped and everything changed forever seems like only yesterday, yet it’s been the longest 5 months of my life. You taught me so much mum but you never taught me how live without you. Now I am a rudderless ship, sail is up but out of control. The shoreline out of sight, rough seas all around and me just bobbing up and down trying to keep afloat, trying not to drown. Mum you were the lighthouse, the ever present light, the trusting guide I still need and long for. Never have I felt so much pain, heartache, anger, emptiness and loss. The world was a better place for you being in it and your absence is more than I can convey or cope with. Mum, this is the month you loved so much with Christmas just around the corner. You would have had your Christmas shopping well and truly done, wrapping them all for the family you loved and spoiled so very much. The tree would be up, presents under it and decorations and lights aplenty. But it’s not to be this year or for any other years to come, this and every other Christmas will never be the same. Mum, today I will sit and talk with you just like every other day and a tear or two will flow adding the river I have already cried. My river of tears runs deep mum, just as my love for you does too. Always on my mind and forever in my heart Your broken son 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler Merry Christmas in Heaven Mum I know you will be looking in on us today mum and somehow I know you are near, but it doesn’t make it any easier or won’t stop me shedding a tear. Your absence is felt even more at this special time of year, it was always your favourite, but Ive lost my Christmas cheer. Today will be real difficult, gut wrenching and sad, filled with memories of all the good times that we had. And littered amongst the memories will be smiles and tears of joy, memories of a loved childhood from your naughty little boy. I remember your encouragement, love and support, all the things that mattered and all lessons taught. I am forever grateful mum for all you did and gave, and so I sit alone today and weep beside your grave. If tears alone could bring back, you’d be sitting hear with me and we’d be sharing more good times and a coffee or two or three. Mum, wherever you may be in heaven, know that you are loved beyond all measure and safely locked away in my heart forevermore to treasure. Merry Christmas Mum Your broken son 🎄💔💔💔💔🎄

Paul Cutler This is/was written for you MUM 💔💔 I miss your love, wisdom, counsel and your beautiful smile more than anyone could possibly know or understand

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Paul Cutler I wish you were here with me today mum, thank you for all that you did for me and all that you sacrificed. Turning 50 without you was not something I am prepared for. I miss and love you beyond words 💔💔

Paul Cutler Beautiful Roses for you mum from Gail We miss you terribly 💔💔

Paul Cutler Your absence is always with me mum as is the heartache 💔

Paul Cutler How I wish we could be together 💔💔

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Paul Cutler On this day all those years ago you were by my side mum, there to witness and celebrate Gail and I getting married .....Oh how I wish you were here today 💔💔

Paul Cutler I miss you every day Mum, but I’m eternally grateful for the unconditional love you gave me ❤️❤️

Paul Cutler You are missed more than you will ever know 💔

Paul Cutler Mum, today will be a regular day for so many, but not for me. As the sun breaks this cold winter morning, so does my heart 💔 Just as it did on this day 2 years ago. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you or talk with you Mum. I know you are near, I feel your presence all around me. Our bond remains strong, my love for you unbroken Your light still shines through, guiding me as you have always done. If only I could reach out and hold you To do so would bring me untold joy and I would never let you go. Time heals nothing, it merely marks the countless hours, days and months of incalculable pain and heartache one endures. I look back over my life and realise that at every turn you were there. Always and ever in my corner as protector, teacher, friend and greatest mother. You were, are and will always be my hero ❤️ I miss you terribly mum and my tears still flow, but I know I am so very fortunate to have had your unconditional love and guidance. You are the most remarkable human I have ever known, your courage, determination, compassion and sense of fairness to others will always be admired and celebrated and I hope that I am making you smile and making you proud as I try to live by your teachings. Your teachings also extended to the subtle but critically important areas of honour, bravery and integrity and you had these in spades Mum. It’s fair to say you gave me your fiery and explosive temper along with your unwillingness to ever be stood over, traits and lessons I am ever so grateful for. So it is with a heavy heart today Mum that I will take time to lovingly reflect on all our days together and in amongst my tears of sadness will be joyous smiles too for all that we shared and for the great light and love you have brought to my life. Till we are together once more, fly high my angel Your ever loving son 💔💙💔💙💔💙💔

Paul Cutler 2 years to the day I layed you to rest my beautiful Mum💔 My heart forever broken I miss you more than I can convey and more than anyone understands Words alone will never do you justice You will forever live on forever in my broken heart Till we are together once more, watch over us my beautiful angel. 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler 💔so very true 💔

Paul Cutler Mum, I’m missing you terribly, everything is so bleak right now. I really need you, the ongoing struggle remains all too real Sometimes more than I can bear The days turn to weeks and weeks to months and the numbness remains Grief is like a shadow, it never really leaves you and at times the shadow it casts is larger than one can cope with. Right now, just getting through the day and keeping my myself together is a challenge. It’s 26 months since I held you in my arms and heard your warm voice A crushing heartache remains but is hidden by a broken smile and veil If I have learned anything Mum, I’ve learned that I was so very fortunate to have had you in my life and that your unconditional love and support is missed beyond measure. Missing you more than ever 💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler Not a day goes by I don’t think if you Mum, I long for our talks, our laughs, your wisdom, your love. With every day that passes I miss you more, you are and will always be forever in my heart. I’ll see you in my dreams again as I so often do and I know your looking over us as I feel you near too. I love and miss you more than I can convey, words alone are simply not enough but I will continue to honour the greatest mother, friend and teacher till we are once more together. 💔💕💔💕💔

Paul Cutler Merry Christmas Mum As I start the day, you are all I have on my mind And as I stand at your resting place, I’ll try to hold the tears in So many beautiful memories wash over me So much love and admiration for you I need nothing more than to hear your voice Time they say heals the heart and grief passes I say we grieve for not only what we had but what we miss moving forward So much pain and so much heartache but I’m going to smile for you today I’m going to try and be happy because that’s what you would want for me If I had just one wish for Christmas it would be to have you here with me And in so many ways you are here with me You’re in my heart, where I will keep you always and forever You live on through me and I feel your presence in my life and I count my blessings every time I speak your name So today Mum on your favourite day, Ill be sending all my love to you in heaven Merry Christmas my beautiful Mum

Paul Cutler 😢always on my mind and forever in my heart miss you so much Mum 💔

Paul Cutler I miss you more than anyone knows or understands 💔

Paul Cutler Mum, as the clock ticks past midnight and your birthday is here once more I’m overwhelmed with emotion as silent tears fall to the floor. My heart remains ever broken just like my crooked smile and I would trade all I have to hold you for a while. There will be no birthday cake and no hugs or warm embrace But ill be sitting and talking with you as I so often do at your resting place I’ll reminisce all the happy times we shared and all the loving memories too and pay special tribute to you my mum as lovingly as I can do. A truly remarkable woman is what you really were Compassionate, fiercely protective and loyal to those who you embraced Always standing in the corner of those who had trouble to face Ever ready to jump in and lend a helping hand, you were always by my side ensuring a soft land. I will never forget all your sacrifices, all the love you gave nor all that you did for us, you could not be more loved or honoured mum of that I’m quite sure So as I wish you a Happy Heavenly Birthday Mum and my tears fall one by one I hear your reassuring words“ I’ll always be with you and love you son” Happy 76th Birthday in Heaven Mum ❤️❤️❤️

Paul Cutler Happy Mothers Day in Heaven Mum ❤️

Paul Cutler Mum, its 3 years today I relive the trauma of that day over and over It’s been the hardest 3 years of my life, My world fell apart when you left I tried pushing on and coping as best I could But in reality its been a very different picture, in truth I haven’t coped For such a long time I was lost, struggling with life Wave after wave of feeling empty, alone and angry, a shadow of my former self You were the one person who always stood beside me throughout my life I wasn’t ready for you to leave mum, we had so much more to do and share 💔 Losing you left me broken, lost and consumed by an inconsolable grief My world fell into darkness and then imploded and nothing remains as it once was You were my compass, my lighthouse in the dark You listened to me tell my stories, held my fear and all my worries The secrets of my heart, you have always known You helped me find the truth and fixed all the damaged pieces Your soft but reassuring hand, I had no more I am only now starting to find myself once more and regain some inner-peace and control back over my life, but there are still days where your absence overwhelms me and the silent tears flow once more. I know I haven’t been at my best these last 3 years Mum, I also know you would want more for me And with much help from my inner circle, I am now in a better space and my heart is slowly recovering ❤️‍🩹 piece by piece. I have so many treasured memories of us together, I’m filled with pride when I talk about you as I so often do. The countless sacrifices you made for me and all the little things that you did were never taken for granted. Your love lives on and whilst today is so terribly sad for me, I also need to celebrate your life. Celebrate and acknowledge the remarkable, powerful and beautiful mother, grandmother, aunt, wife and friend that you were and are. I still speak with you each day and I always will And I hear you when I need you most, whispering “you’re gonna be ok” and “I love you my son” just as you did with your final words💔 You have had the most profound impact on my life and I miss you like crazy mum You will never be forgotten, you are more that just a memory And even though I can’t touch your face I feel you walk beside me everyday Your loving son Paul ❤️❤️❤️

Paul Cutler So very true ❤️

Paul Cutler As Christmas comes Mum, I know this was your favourite time of the year. You loved everything about it. Perhaps that’s why I struggle with this time of the year so much. I cant stop thinking of you and miss you like crazy….my heart hearts all over again 💔💔

Paul Cutler Merry Christmas My Angel 🎄 I just want one of your hugs Mum I miss you more than anyone knows 💔 Wishing we could be together Always on my mind and forever in my heart 💜

Paul Cutler Happy Birthday Mum in Heaven 💐❤️ I would give the world to have you in my arms again. I miss you terribly and will love you all my days. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and for always being at my side. I am lucky to have had such a wonderful mother and your teaching’s are not lost on me. I’ll keep trying to make you proud. Gone from my arms but never from my heart or thoughts 💔💔💔💔

Paul Cutler 3 years 10 months to the day I lost you and not a day goes by where I don’t miss you mum. The pain of your loss still lingers and has changed me forever, but I was blessed to have had you as my mum and held you in my arms. I talk with you everyday and feel your presence in my life. Gone from my arms but never from my heart Till we meet again Mum, I will love you always 💔💔

Paul Cutler Happy Mother’s Day Mum in Heaven. Thankyou for being the most wonderful mum ever, I am blessed to have had you and I am eternally grateful for all the love and support you unselfishly gave. I miss you more than words can convey, you will always be in my heart and thoughts Mum. I love you beyond measure Sending all my love to you this day and always ❤️💐❤️

Paul Cutler I miss you every day Mum, but even more on days like today. I would trade everything, all my tomorrows to have you here with me, happy and healthy once again but I know that can’t be done. So I live on with you in my heart where you will always be. I love and miss you more than I can convey and my heart breaks a little more toady. The endless sacrifices you made for me and the love you showered me with will last a life time and carry me through till we meet again. You are always in my heart my beautiful mum ❤️💜❤️💜

Paul Cutler Mum, its been 4 long years since you left us and I miss you more than ever. My heart hasn’t healed and I still miss you like crazy. The tears still flow as do the smiles when I think of all our good times. So much has happened in those years and yet I somehow feel you know this. If only I had the power to turn back time, to be sitting with you once more and hear your voice, have one more hug. There isn’t anything in the world I wouldn’t give for that. I think of you every day but today is so much harder, the events of that cold bleak morning 4 years ago are burned into my heart and memory. I was forever changed that day. Its been a long tough slog to get to where I am today and I now understand that the grief journey never ends. When we love someone so dearly, we also grieve for them just as much. Its the price we pay for unconditional love but it doesn’t seem fair. As I stand at your grave today and reminisce about all of our good times, I once agin surrender to the wave of emotion that flows over me, followed by gratitude and indebtedness to you Mum. You were taken way too soon and I was not at all prepared for your loss despite your illness and prognosis. You fought the courageous fight right till the end and left your mark on this world Mum and you will be forever remembered as my kind hearted, considerate, compassionate, loyal, ultra fiery and fearless Mum. Until we meet again my beautiful mum, I will keep you in my heart always. 💔💔💔💔